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If I added you, I may have done so randomly. I may have done so because you responded to one of my entries. Either way, it means that I want you to read my journal.



This is an anonymous journal. I created it simply to put my thoughts, beliefs, and feelings into written form. Honesty is my goal. I have a bad habit of being dishonest with myself or make excuses for myself.

Some small thing about me
I am 20 years old.
I am a college student.
I live in a dorm room by myself.

My current goal in life is to have a girlfriend, or at least a relationship of some sort. Making this journal is hopefully a step in the right direction toward that goal.

I may use names in my entries. These names are all fake names.

If you ask me a question, I will answer honestly. The only questions I will not answer are those which may be used to identify me, the writer of this journal. I have no interest in impressing anybody here.



My history with women...woman...:
6 years ago, when I was 14, I began having a relationship with a girl my age. I would constantly ask if she was my girlfriend, she always said no. This relationship was a very strange one that lasted for about two years, until I was 16 when we simply stopped talking.

Between the ages 16 and 18, I never really talked to any girls. I never asked any girls out. I never asked for any girl's phone numbers. None asked for mine. I was ugly. I never put any focus on my appearance. This is one of my greatest regrets in life.

When I was 18 and already had 1 foot out the door of high school, I decided I wanted to change my appearance, so I did. I have made vast improvements since then. I don't feel ugly any more, though I feel that way sometimes.

A few months after I decided to change, I had another fling with the girl from a couple years earlier. I haven't talked to her since.

I have not kissed anyone besides that girl. I've been looking to change that, unsuccessfully.

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